When we decided it was time....

John and I got married on October 2, 2004 and it was my fairy tale wedding. I married my best friend, my soul mate, and the person whom I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. From the beginning we always talked about having children, having that little person that would be half of me and half of John, but there were definitely priorities. We definitely knew we wanted to own our own home before we tried to have children. We didn't want to have a child while we were still renting and living in our little apartment. Well that priority was fulfilled when we bought our home in August 2007. Day after day we moved in, we decorated, and before we knew it, it was all finished and it finally felt like our little nest. We also decided that it was time to add a new member into our nest. So in November we decided it was time to finally try to conceive. I had been irregular for a few months now and I had decided in July that I was going to start charting. I begun charting in July and I noticed that I was becoming irregular cycle after cycle. At first I thought the reason why I was so irregular was because I went through a lot of stress during the whole closing and moving process of the house. So in November I gave up alcohol and starting doing good things for my body to become ready to have a child. I finally ovulated on CD 36. Ironically at the same time I also got bronchittis and was very ill for a few days. I continued temping during the long 2 ww period. I had no symptoms what so ever, although my chart did show a triphasic pattern. On 15 DPO I knew that either my temp would drop and AF would arrive or my temp would raise and it could possibly be a BFP. So on 15 DPO, my temp sore and I knew that I was pregnant. As soon as I saw my temp, I got up from bed and told John I was pregnant. He was shocked! That afternoon I stopped at CVS and picked up a digital home pregnancy test. I waited until John got home and took the test. After about 3 minutes, I look at the test, and the result showed up - pregnant. We were so excited!!! That night we talked about everything and how we would have a little baby in 9 months. The next day I told my parents and called my Ob/Gyn to schedule an appointment. I had never met this Ob/Gyn that I was going to because in the past I was always seen my the physician assistant, but my primary physician recommend him to me and I went with her recommendation. It was still all a shock to me the fact that I was pregnant. That weekend we were going to New York to a Christmakkuah part and we decided that we would tell John's parents that we were expecting. We told them the news when we got there Friday night and his mom was so excited. We went to bed and the next day is when everything begin to unfold. I woke up and went I went to the bathroom I saw that I was spotting bright red. I got a little nervous but at first didn't think much of it. I had read in the pass that some women experience some spotting, so I thought this is what I'm having. As the morning progressed the spotting became more intense and I also noticed that my breasts were no longer swollen. At that exact moment I knew that I was miscarrying. I called my Dr. and they wanted me to go in for some blood work immediately. When I told them I was not in town but in NY, they said for me to go the hospital right away and gave me list of all sorts of blood work that I should have done. I told John and his parents the news and they rushed me to the hospital. At this time the bleeding was now officialy flowing like my period have arrived. I was checked in and within minutes was seen by the doctor. After an hour or so of bloodwork and urine samples, the doctor approached John and I and told us that he was sorry to inform us that I had indeed miscarried. I bursted out into tears. The doctor told us that his wife in fact had had two miscarriages and today they had two lovely sons. John just kept holding my arm. I went in for an ultrasound and indeed there was nothing there. I went home back to my mother-in-law's house feeling so empty. I couldn't believe it that I had miscarried! I called home and told my parents and my sister immediately. I felt so sad that we had just told the good news to my in laws and now we were on our way home to reveal some bad news.