The Due Date

So here it is today, August 5, my due date if I had never miscarried. Ironically, I'm feeling pretty good today. I think it helps that it has been 9 months and throughout that time I have completely healed. Of course I still think about it from time to time, but overall, time has healed my wound. Although I feel good, it's hard to think that during these 9 months, I have not conceived. I never thought that my due date would arrive, and I still would not be pregnant. This is definitely the worst part of today but I think of the good things that I have enjoyed this summer since I'm not pregnant. Drinking my favorite summer alcohol drinks for one has not been a problem and it feels good to know I can still loose those extra pounds that I have gained. Of course as today passes along, I will be thinking; would my baby have all ready arrived? Would I of been late? Would it have been a boy or a girl? But I know it wasn't meant to be and I know one day my due date will arrive, and I will have my baby in my arms.